This past week I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting on the past year of my life. Particularly professionally.
Many of you when we have a session will ask: “When did you start doing this”? “How did you know you had this ability”?
Well, I’ve known I’ve had this gift for years. But I always brushed it off. After all, society does not recognize this as the “norm” right? So I was embarrassed by it yet proud at the same time. So I stayed in the shadows, a “closet reader” I liked to call myself.
At the age of 21, I started my first “real” job as an administrative professional. It was ok at first. I had great benefits and a pretty darn good salary so all seemed cushy enough. Yet, I always felt like something was missing. I stayed at that job for five years. All the while I continued to conduct readings on the side, and in secret.
I definitely did not have a website at that time. I remember working fundraisers & events, and praying beforehand not to run into any of the professionals I encountered at my “real” job.
Ironically enough, these were the very people that were the most interested in what I did, but I digress.
Back to the original point: I worked three other office jobs between 2006-2015. Always feeling like something was missing and I was out of alignment with my soul purpose. Some of you will relate to this : that knowing deep down that you were meant for more.
When I give readings, I know I am helping people to transform themselves, or at least look at life a little differently. When I was at a desk job, I felt like I was rotting, and like my soul was suffering. This was not my purpose. I knew this. Something had to be done…but what? Could I really go into readings full time? Then the beautiful universe stepped in, but not without my help.
Literally every morning for a whole year, I would light a candle and ask for help. I would ask for direction, and some way out of my current situation and into reading full time. Then I went about my daily life. Every sunday like clock work my stomach would begin to drop around 4 PM and fill with dread thinking of the upcoming week. UGH- it’s almost monday. Then monday would come and it was always so difficult to get out of bed! I felt so stuck.
Then something beautiful happened…. I got laid off. At first I was sad, angry & depressed. I got LAID OFF. (Not in the most noble way either, but I’ve moved on from that. I am a firm believer in Karma and I will always allow the universe to work its magic).
I had NO CHOICE but to truly put all of my talents & abilities to use, and intently focus on my passion: my readings. I have never been happier and felt more fulfilled. Sure, I may not have a steady paycheck, but you know what I do have? A feeling of peace & a knowing that all will be ok. I am helping people & teaching people. This is where my soul is content. So for those of you struggling, just ask for a little guidance and be open to what the universe provides for you. I truly love this article and refer to it quite often , and I hope it helps you as well-
Love & Light,